Whatever

I woke up several people in the way that I thought I could there was uncles in the morning and I left it alone and time kept passing and in the lake there was no way I could ever wait for it and instead All I thought was that there could be picnics there could not be porks oh I thought you would have a chance to wait but it seems that I could never wait I could never wait and the time it continues to take away bits of my life and so interesting how close the word life is to the word lie and I have some skills that I have been leaving behind and after all the studying I do there is nothing I seem to be able to remember not the way that I wanted to not that way not the way that I wanted to the fuckers got themselves destroyed but there was a way for me to be better that that there was something in my plan I was sure of and I waited for as long as I could but beets told me that as a man I could not be happier than there would be some how sea creatures personality would bring into the steeplechase that you all thought there was jungles in you life and as the time came there was a secret in your face and it made me so angry and I have you have no idea who it is that you are attacking what the hell difference is it to you what it is that I wanted to use my anger for and instead there you found that the steel was having simpletons worth hanging on people get to fight you whine like a mule you whine like a mule you are still alive there was a fight and you couldn’t let any one single person go without being killed without being killed those guys had nothing to do here and so instead of waiting we wait while kevin has his dangerous happenings you see you little fucking deathmobile kids who will wait for as long as they can but instead there is something that you will insist that they reach but they never will find all the anger that I think was inside the injustice I hated nothing less than the way you consistently don’t become anything but a barbarian and so they learn to kill leaving no room for a decent person for learning for reading the places I always wanted to have taken away from me. But I can find more places to hide away from the decision that I made that made me happy for a time but what I did with it is a questionable thing- how much have I even tried to translate what was inside of me into something that I wanted all to read but here we were we could not give everyone enough of the feedback that came from sending the man from his grave beyond the specificity drawing away from the shot. And all I want to do is try as hard as I can to experience the fight that I feel I deserve and on the train I tried so hard to make the art octopuses known profundities I can try to take seriously but there is no output- nothing worth working on and why because I am a loser who will wish for death forever but will only gradually move closer and closer to is as I struggle for a foot in the door and the woman I choose might not know what to do but there is place for me with out death without thinking hurting all those many wonderful experiences are not worth the few seconds of neck breaking that comes from the problems in modern urban society and I don’t even have a loud enough voice to maintain a blog,